Taking another break…..or maybe, moving on

It’s interesting to watch things run their course.  I’m grateful for this blog and for the ability to get some things down in writing for myself to examine.  I almost feel as though these were among the “remnants” of my ED, hanging around with no place to go, no one really to talk to about them (there’s only so far I can push the envelope with my dear husband’s attentions span).  But now that they’re out, I feel as though I’m ready to move on, to slow down or stop altogether the analysis.  I’m done, I’m ready for what’s next.  I hate using the word “closure” because I hate buying into the illusion that things are completely done, that I’ll somehow never again experience a challenge or stumble related to this topic.  I know better.  But the word closure does apply, in the sense that I feel like I’ve “gotten this out of my system” and can release it from my brain.  If I have an occasional tangential “ah HAH!” to record, fine.   But I feel like what’s needed to be done, has been done, what’s needed to be said, has been said.  NEXT!

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