This is an issue that’s come up more and more, and I’m realizing how much I have never really matured to the point in which I can graciously set boundaries when a man’s attention to me is clearly beginning to cross a line from “casual interaction” to “trying to pursue something more.” Certainly, it’s incredibly [...]
Archive for June, 2009
Handling unwanted male attention
Posted in Ah-HAH!, Powerlessness, male attention, men, tagged men, setting boundaries, unwanted male attention on June 25, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
An early memory: “Mom, does it get any easier to watch my weight when I’m a grown up?”
Posted in Dieting, teen dieting, tagged teen body image, teen dieting, teenage weight concerns on June 22, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
This one just popped into my head recently. I can actually remember where I was, what we were doing as a family, when I nervously asked this question of my mom. I was 14, we were on vacation and out for a hike, and I can remember feeling very troubled at my appetite, and that [...]
Looking back at myself via past posts: Good? Bad? Excessive?
Posted in Change, Eating Disorders, tagged blogging, changing into a new person, letting go of bad behaviors, reading old posts, self improvement blogging, the final stage of an eating disorder on June 20, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
It occurred to me, as I wrote my latest post yesterday, what a different person I am today than a few months ago, or six months ago, a year ago, etc. In some ways, I think my eating disorder — or more accurately, the person I was when I let myself live in that state [...]
Having a mindset oriented around doing it for a “grade” — doesn’t work with eating, doesn’t work in business
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged success on June 19, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I think I still battle this, though it’s gotten oh so much better. It’s the idea that one does what they do not because that’s what will genuinely render results, but because it looks good on paper, it will be handed in for a grade, and the better the grade, the better i.e. your weight [...]
My Higher Power: The recharger; inside me, the battery
Posted in 12-step programs, Higher Power in Eating Disorders, Powerlessness, tagged 12-step programs, Higher Power, Powerlessness on June 19, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
I’ve been thinking (some more) about the concept of powerlessness. Amazing how one word can prompt so much semantical analysis. It is the word of choice in the first step of 12-step programs, i.e. “We admitted we were powerless over <fill in the blank>…” I used to wonder if my constant musing about the word [...]
Oh the irony — the binge that “didn’t need to be”
Posted in Bingeing, Uncategorized, tagged Bingeing, irony on June 19, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Well I sure learned my lesson this week!
I sometimes fall prey to a binge — great or small — that comes from a fear of not having the opportunity to have one of my planned “treat nights” anytime in the near future. How absurd is that, but it’s true. Because although I plan these treat [...]
The fear that all will come crumbling down (again) next winter
Posted in winter's effect on eating, tagged relapsing in winter, winter blues on June 17, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
If there were a way to journal my exact emotional, spiritual and physical progression through the year (I mean EXACT, not just little nuggets or the day’s highlights)….you would see a distinct pattern jump out. Right about now is when I’m feeling the relief that comes when whatever recent struggles/slips I’d had seem to slip [...]
The debate of avoiding sugar/flour vs. “everything in moderation”….Part 2
Posted in Eliminating foods, tagged avoiding flour-based foods, avoiding sugar, avoiding wheat, moderate eating on June 14, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
So this is a continuation of my thought process on this subject. To get a sense of full context, please refer to Part 1 of this post, posted yesterday (or the next entry down, whichever reference makes more sense by the time you read this).
Obviously, one of the reasons I’m even pondering this is because [...]
The debate of avoiding sugar/flour vs. “everything in moderation”….Part 1
Posted in Eliminating foods, tagged eliminating sugar and flour on June 13, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Bear with me, this is going to take more than one blog entry to work through. Maybe some of what I’m writing will resonate with you.
This is a subject of endless debate, and I don’t suspect there’s any one definitive “right” answer or conclusion. If anything, it only underscores how very different everyone is when [...]
